Identity


As the crests of the liquid mirror
faced me -
I gazed upon its critical eyes 
in a hazy attempt 
to crawl into my own shadow.

That split second stretches
into a millennium's worth of condescending
judgements.
At half a heartbeat, the soul sunk
so deep
in a pursuit for justification.
You drift into a celestial realm of uncertainty,
a cloud of unsaturated doubt.

Who am I?

(An artist's obsession...)

On a constant loop you watch
your existence racing into oblivion.
 You thirst for validation
To be counted for purpose.






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  1. UnknownDecember 1, 2019 at 3:31 PM

    thirst for validation in the liquid glass...I better be prepared when I look into a mirror. You bring such introspection to the everyday questions I avoid. - Jade

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